Crohn’s Colitis: Tough Times

Tough Times

It has been tough times lately between the snow storms, everyday problems, jobs, and the price of everyday goods and services going up. It has been a struggle to rise up and smile, it has been hard to find the silver lining in each day.

I too have been finding it hard to smile. I am looking for answers about how to deal with the snow on my roof, the price of everything, and dealing with sickness of a family member. This is when I need to say to myself: “ok Bob go back to the beginning, live by my 4 rules of life”.  These were told to me by my brother and father.

  1. If there is a problem make a decision and carry it out as soon as possible and live with the outcome.
  2. If there is a problem but you cannot do anything about it until later, do not worry about it and solve the problem when you can solve it.
  3. If there is a problem and you cannot do anything about it do not worry about it at all.
  4. (This is my father’s rule.)  Have faith god will provide.

These rules give me permission to take a breath and let go of some of the stress of my earthly ego life which includes things like shoveling, paying bills, jobs, illness, and all the trappings which we call survival. When I am caught up in my ego survival it zaps my energy because I am moving from one horror story to the next.  I am playing catch up, try to solve one problem after another.  Even my meditation suffers because I am looking for an escape from my mind and my thoughts.

There is a breaking point when I say ‘screw it all’. 

The question is when do you say you have had enough of worrying about all this? When do you realize the ego is controlling your life and take it back?  When do you say “I have done my best today and it is time for me to create a better day and just smile?”  When do you say in your heart “have faith and god will provide?”  When do you look at your wife, husband, coworker, or a total stranger and smile and say to yourself “it is going to be alright”?