Crohn’s Colitis: Where Do I Go From Here?


Where Do I Go From Here?

Where do I go from here?  Where does the stripping of ego take me?  What do I do when I know the foundation of the ego is everything outside of me? 

The ego knows it has to have my mind running every moment of every day.  The ego knows that if it keeps a steady flow of entertainment it will keep the present moment and the truth off balance.

Where do I go from here?  How do I move away from this informational over load?  How do I see everything, see it for what it is and nothing more?   I wish I could remember when I was a baby and how it was to look at everything with wonder and curiosity: no labels, no titles, no information, no thought, no story.

Where do I go from here?  Even watching the breath is connected to ego because the ego came up with the thought of watching. Then the ego will talk to me when I am watching it.  The ego is part of me.

Where do I go from here? I am sitting still and I feel everything moving by me. 

I might just make it work for me. I am going to feel energy come into my heart as I inhale and I am going to see this purified energy leave through my third eye as I exhale.  Thank you ego, for another great meditation.

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