Controlling the Trigger
I recently wrote about becoming aware of what triggers your illness. I want to say a little more about that. In my life, my trigger was stress and how I managed it. I would swallow my stress and it had nowhere to go. So like food that you eat, it started coming out the other end and created my illness, Crohn’s Colitis.
Everywhere we go in life we have stress one way or the other. There is physical stress like cold, hot, rain or snow and then there is emotional stress. I believe in my life my emotional stress, if I let it go on, would have ended up killing me.
Like I said, I swallowed my stress because in my family I was not taught how to handle stress or my emotions effectively. I didn’t want to look weak when I was overwhelmed, so I sucked it up. I believe the body is like a jar and you can only fit so much in the jar until it overflows.
That’s why I tell everyone to look into stress management and look for tools to help you stop swallowing stress. This alone might help you cure your illness. There are tons of books and learning materials out there that will help you. It is also the reason I wrote my book. I wanted to share the tools that I have found helpful and which ultimately cured my disease.
Meditation is a great tool to empty your mind and give it a rest. But, it is hard to do when you’re in a stressful situation. You need to have something you can do on the fly or in the middle of your job. One of my favorite things to say when I start getting stressed over something in the moment that I am trying to fix or work through is: “I am not going to get sick over this.” Those simple words bring me back to reality about what is important. There is nothing in this world worth getting sick over. And if you think worry is going to solve the problem, it’s not!
To control my trigger I needed to create a mindset that I have done my best and if something does not work out, I need to believe that it was not meant to be and move on. Nothing is worth getting sick over!
My book, I Healed My Crohn’s Colitis, is a simple and powerful book that shows you how I healed and gives you the tools to do the same. It is now available! Pick up your copy at any local bookstore or order online at Amazon, Barnes and Noble, or Balboa Press Bookstore
I have people ask me a lot of questions about when I was sick and how I healed, and I have helped a few too. It comes down to this for me: there is a faith that comes with healing yourself, a belief, a strength, a power. That power is that you can do anything if you set your mind to it.
I joke with my students and friends about how everyone needs a good disease. If you dig deep down inside yourself and do the work, really do the work, and your effort and sweat pays off, you have such a reward and a hero’s story to tell.
I look back now at how I just made a decision and said no to surgery when doctors wanted to give me a colostomy bag. I had no master plan. I had no ideas about what I was going to do. I had the thought that if I got much worse I would just get the surgery but at least I could say I tried.
I figured I had nothing to lose. I figured the surgery had my back and the doctors would put me back together again. So I stopped playing it safe and changed my diet to what I thought might help my bowels. My wife supported me by trying different things and gave me money to buy books and I started studying. I made learning about myself a priority.
The feeling that I had nothing to lose propelled me into the person I am now. I became fearless. My cure was meditation and controlling my mind. Diet and working out played a part, but it was me learning to control my mind that turned everything around. That might not be your bag, maybe meditation is not it for you. But what is? What is your belief? What is going to heal you? No matter what it is, you have to have faith in yourself and support from the people around you.
My wife marvels at what I have done in my life. I think if you asked her she would say she supported me but I think she’d also admit she did not see the big picture. The funny part is I did not have the big picture in my head when I set out. I was flying by the seat of my pants in those days.
That is why I created this whole blog to start with. I had no one saying to me “you can beat this”. I had no one sharing what they learned on their path to wellness. I really want to say to everyone, “you are not alone and you can heal”.
If you have any questions please blog them to me.
Some of my beliefs and Crohn’s Colitis
I live by some beliefs that I am going to share with you.
- The brain controls the body. The brain controls every part of your body: your breath, heartbeat, hair growing, hair falling out…you name it, the brain controls it.
- The mind does not know the difference between what we consider truth and what we consider imagination. When I say truth, that being what we notice with our senses/what happens outside of our bodies. And imagination being what we create and imagine inside of our brains.
- I believe we can over ride the automatic programming of the mind, and the mind is running on automatic pilot. There are people that can lower their heart rates, blood pressures, and fat burning just by flipping the switch from automatic to manual and adjusting whatever they want to adjust in their bodies.
- I believe when you have a sickness or dis-ease that is the signal to you that the automatic programming is out of alignment with healthy living. Sometimes without knowing it, we could have thrown the program out of whack with our eating, stressing, fostering bad living conditions, etc. etc.
- I believe when the mind creates a sickness in the body it is not trying to hurt or kill its host (body) it is actually trying to fix the problem. It is creating a signal for the brain to help change the program.
- One last thing, I believe you have to change the situation(s) that is causing the illness before you can heal. Change the situation and create a healthy life style. At the same time flip your mind to manual and create a new image of your life and where you are going. I believe if you readjust you will start to create health in the body.
Question for you to answer: If you also took these beliefs to be true, do you believe that you can reverse your illness by changing and using your own mind to bring you back to a healthy state?
Tell me what you think leave me a blog.
Symptom: (simp’tom) n. a sign or indication, esp. of a particular disease.
Symptom free: no sign or indication of a particular disease.
Cure (kyur) n 1, restoration to health. 2, a method of treatment. 3, a remedy. –v.t. 1, heal; make well. 2 remedy (an evil) 3, preserve by drying or salting.
I wrote down the definitions of symptom and cure for a reason. In my mind I have cured myself of Crohn’s Colitis. I live a very normal life. I eat what I want, I have one solid bowel movement a day. I have no cramping or anything that is even close to abdominal discomfort associated with my digestive tract. I have a good appetite and plenty of energy and I don’t take any medicine at all for Crohn’s Colitis. I have been this way for the last twenty years.
I am telling you all this because I was told in a colonoscopy that I had few ulcers on my intestines. This is where some people get confused. If I have a few ulcers on my intestines but I have no symptoms of the illness does that mean I am sick?
Did you know that we all have cancer moving freely through our bodies? But not until that cancer creates a symptom do we think we are sick. So cancer cells are moving around our bodies not causing any trouble and have not created any symptoms. So are we healthy or are we sick?
I believe in my heart that our bodies are all perfect. I believe my intestines are perfect because no one else has my DNA or genes or you could just say, my finger print. So, how can you compare my intestines to anyone else’s? That is like comparing oranges and apples and it’s not fair to either one. I believe my intestines are alright with few ulcers I believe that they are doing their job of keeping me healthy and most of all on the right path.
In my late teens and early twenties my intestines screamed and yelled and that got my attention. They made me take stock in my life and made me live up to my full potential. I owe a great deal to my intestines they have made me who I am. Crohn’s Colitis saved my life and then gave me one.
What are your intestines saying to you?
I was at a local restaurant with my wife where the owner and some of the wait staff know me. They knew about my story with Crohn’s Colitis. The owner asked me to tell my story to her waitress who has Colitis because she just got out of the hospital after a month’s stay. So the waitress looked at me square in the eye saying to her manager “tell her there is no cure for Colitis”.
I looked at her and said “you’re asking the wrong person”.
Then in a polite manner she asked, “so you healed yourself?” and followed with “so you must not have been that sick”.
My wife spoke up saying “he has been symptom free for over twenty years and takes no medicines but his intestines still have some ulcers”.
The waitress waited for me to answer her question and as I looked deep I could see her eyes saying “well I’m waiting”. I don’t like to talk about my sickness much but I needed to explain how sick I was to her so she would understand where I had been and how far I’ve come. And that she can too.
To start out I am 6’3” and now weigh 245 lbs.
1. When I was sick I weighed 145 lbs. and I worked 4 days a week, 12 hours a day.
2. I lived on TPN a couple of times to give my body a rest.
3. I was on an assortment of drugs azulfidine, prednisone, immuran, and methotrexate.
4. I was hospitalized twice.
5. Usually after I ate I would either end up vomiting or having diarrhea.
6. Then I was told as a last resort I was going to receive an Ostomy. I said no.
I have a belief about Crohn’s and/or Colitis, I believe we all have weak spots in our bodies and mine is my intestines. Now I am just speaking for myself here, and I believe when I deal with my stress instead of swallowing it, my intestines feel great, which leads me to outline how I got control of my life and health.
1. I taught myself meditation to deal with stress.
2. Through meditation I moved my mind forward from being sick to living health.
3. Looking back I can see Crohn’s Colitis became the center of my life. I took my life back.
4. Twenty years later Crohn’s Colitis does not get any thought unless in trying to help others I talk about it.
5. The few ulcers that might be hanging around are a beautiful reminder to stay on track in my life, and I have great life.
6. I don’t take any medicines and I meditate and I live like my beautiful wife put it: symptom free.
7. I say I don’t have time for being sick.
If you have any question or comments please leave a reply, whether you are an old friend or someone I have not met yet, It’d be great to hear from you.